Grieving..... Alone....

It's been awhile since my last post... My friend ask me why im not updating my blog is because i dont know what to write.. hmmmm... as the title says i should write some updates.... let me start.. im still grieving because my mom just passed away, it was never easy to accept it... i cant see her and feel her physically... but like what others says, its better she left cause her suffering will end and she is in better place right now... but i still miss her... christmas is fast approaching and it's sad cause my mom is not with us anymore... i really miss her... i still woke up in the middle of the night crying cause i really do miss her... i just hate it when everybody ask you "are you ok?" and i lie and say "yes i am".... but the truth is "im not" im still grieving...

Then a friend ask me to go back to work.. go back to the previous company that i work with... im having a hard time to decide... i want to go back because the offer is really good... but am i ready to be expose with a group of people... im contented with where am i right now... alone in my room facing my computer and playing some games... but an aunt of my friend told me that i shud go back to work so i can be expose and just have fun... like i did before... right now, i accept the offer.. i hope i did the right decision... but the question is "am i ready to face the world again" and "am i really ok?".... still undecided what answer am i going to give....